Chương 9: Plain Flour, Still Warm

Evening came slow to Lingmen Peak. The autumn sun dropped behind the western ridge and the dormitory block cooled, stone walls releasing the day's heat into corridors that smelled of pine oil and laundry soap and the low murmur of forty-three outer disciples complaining over dinner. Xie Lan skipped dinner. His stomach was a closed fist. Two weeks until the Cangshi witnessing signatory. Four months until the autumn framing window. Ten days until his next Foundation-stage attempt.

And now a sixteen-year-old Heart-Reader prodigy with dark hair and brown eyes who had read his soul from across a room and was currently sitting in a Mingxin Peak study somewhere, pulling textbooks from shelves, looking for the word that matched what she'd seen. He was lying on his bunk, fully clothed, staring at the ceiling crack, when Old Bao came in. The dormitory room was narrow. Two bunks, four storage chests, one window, one lamp.

Old Bao's bunk was the lower across from Xie Lan's, separated by a strip of worn floorboards barely wide enough to stand in. Cheng Lin slept in the bunk above Xie Lan. Tang Yi's was above Old Bao's. Tang Yi wasn't here, hadn't been here since dinner. Cheng Lin was somewhere outside, walking in the dark, doing whatever Cheng Lin did when the day grew too loud for him. Old Bao set the lamp on his storage chest. He sat on his bunk. He looked at Xie Lan. Then he reached into his sleeve and pulled out a steamed bun.

The bun was warm. Still warm, despite having been in Old Bao's sleeve for at least a shichen, kept close to his body heat through the walk from the dining hall to the dormitory block. Red bean. Xie Lan could smell the sweetness from across the room.

"Xie Lan."

"Mm."

"Are you sleeping?"

"Obviously." Old Bao didn't laugh. This was unusual enough that Xie Lan opened one eye. Old Bao was sitting on the edge of his bunk, his round face lit from below by the lamp, his hands folded in his lap. The steamed bun sat on his knee. He looked at Xie Lan. He didn't look away.

"Eat the bun, Xie Lan." The room was quiet. The corridor outside held muffled laughter and the sound of someone arguing about whose turn it was to haul water from the well. The lamp flame flickered. Old Bao sat on the edge of his bunk and held a warm bun on his knee and waited. Xie Lan sat up. He took the bun. He ate it. Red bean paste, thick and sweet, the dough soft enough that it tore cleanly in his fingers. Old Bao watched him eat. The comic mask was off. Underneath it was steady attention, and it wasn't new.

It had been there for a while. Xie Lan ate the bun. The sweetness sat on his tongue. He swallowed.

"Thank you."

"You're welcome." Silence. The lamp flickered. Old Bao didn't ask about the screening. Didn't ask about the bootlace. Didn't ask about the shaking hands or the skipped dinner or the ceiling-staring. He sat on his bunk, and Xie Lan sat on his, and the masks were both off. Then Old Bao yawned. Enormous, theatrical, jaw cracking, arms stretching wide enough to knock his knuckles against the wall, his whole body folding sideways onto his mattress.

"Kitchen ran short on red bean," he said, muffled by the pillow.

"Had to steal it from the inner-disciple tray. Inner disciples eat better than us, have I mentioned?"

"Daily."

"Because it bears repeating. They get red bean. We get plain flour. This is institutional failure, Xie Lan. I want you to understand that I steal for justice."

"Your sacrifice is noted."

"It should be carved in stone. Here steals Old Bao, who braved the inner kitchen so that outer disciples might know sweetness. I expect nothing less." The mask was back. The warmth was back. Old Bao was Old Bao again, round and loud and funny and exactly what you expected him to be. He rolled onto his side and pulled his blanket up and began a low-grade monologue about the relative merits of red bean versus lotus paste filling that would carry him into sleep within a few sips of tea. Xie Lan lay back down.

The red bean sweetness lingered on his tongue. His chest ached where the jade disc had pressed, where the screener had frowned, where Su Xueqing had looked at him from across ten zhang of white jade and seen what she shouldn't have been able to see. Support creative writers by reading their stories on Royal Road, not stolen versions. In the first life, Old Bao had been the first person he'd trusted. Three years it had taken.

Three years before Xie Lan had said I am more than I look, and I need help, and Old Bao had listened and been quiet for a long time and then said:"I know. What do you need?" Ten days into this life, the same boy was sitting across from him with warm buns in his sleeve. Xie Lan hadn't told him anything. Hadn't earned it. Old Bao was offering it anyway. He closed his eyes. Old Bao's snoring started. Low and regular and comforting in the way that only another body breathing in a dark room could be. Su Yan. No answer.

The fragment was resting. Recovering. Spending nothing on words when words couldn't help. Xie Lan lay in the dark and listened to Old Bao breathe and thought about the girl on Mingxin Peak who was reading textbooks by lamplight, looking for the name of the thing she'd seen in his chest. Morning. Fifth bell. Corridor noise, boot-shuffling, someone's elbow in his ribs as the line formed for drills. They formed up in the Lingmen training yard.

Senior Brother Wu was already pacing the front of the formation, hands behind his back, jaw working like he was chewing something bitter he couldn't spit out. The drills started. Standard morning cultivation forms. Xie Lan moved through them with the careful mediocrity of a seventeenth-place student, his qi circulation running at sixty percent of what his threadwork channels could actually handle, his body doing the forms while his mind counted threats. Su Xueqing was investigating him.

Separately from Wei, separately from the faction, on her own initiative, because she'd read something in his qi-field that her textbooks would eventually tell her was impossible. He moved through the third form. His body was warm. The fourth meridian channel ran clean now, the fracture fully knit, the sympathetic strain from Su Yan's masking effort the only ache left in his threadwork. The morning light came through the training yard's eastern gallery and caught the dust from the packed earth floor.

She keeps her own counsel, Su Yan had said. And that was true. In the first life, Xueqing had investigated for months before bringing anything to Wei. She was thorough. She was careful. She wanted to be right. But in the first life, she'd been investigating a distant qi-anomaly in a western frontier report, not a living breathing outer disciple she'd scanned from ten zhang away. The proximity changed things. He finished the morning forms. Took water from the yard's stone trough. Splashed his face.

His reflection in the water was a sixteen-year-old boy who needed more sleep. Tang Yi was watching him from across the yard. Still watching. Always watching. Jaw set, arms crossed, standing apart from the other disciples. Xie Lan turned from the trough. The morning sun was burning off the last of the fog, and the mountain was clear, and the peaks of Lingxiao Sect rose against the sky in their ordered hierarchy: Tianqu at the center, Jianzhi to the south, Mingxin to the east, Cangshi to the north.

Each one held someone who was looking for him, or looking for what he carried, or looking for a version of him that hadn't existed yet. Brother. Su Yan. Faint. Barely there. You should know. Someone came for Tang Yi this morning. He kept walking. Didn't break stride. When? While you were in the yard. I felt the qi-signature pass the dormitory block. Cangshi resonance. Senior. An elder's attendant, maybe the elder herself. Cao Jianzhi? Possible. The signature was disciplined. Formal. A summoning.

He reached the edge of the training yard. Looked back. Tang Yi was gone from his position by the water trough. His place in the drill formation was empty. Senior Brother Wu hadn't called his name, which meant Senior Brother Wu had been informed. Tang Yi had been summoned to Cangshi Peak. A private interview with a Cangshi elder. They're building corroboration, Su Yan said. They already have the screening anomaly. Now they need someone who saw you display knowledge above your station.

Someone who watched blood hit the courtyard stones after a technique that a Qi Refining disciple shouldn't know. Tang Yi. Who had seen exactly that. Who had been watching for exactly that. Who had a mother who visited every quarter and asked about his prospects for inner-disciple promotion and never asked whether he was well. Tang Yi, who had once driven a boy out of the sect with a public mockery he'd spent a year regretting in the hour before sleep.

That boy lived in Tang Yi alongside the other one — the one who noticed too much and said too little and was deciding, right now on Cangshi Peak, what the noticing was worth. The faction only needed one of them. Xie Lan stood at the edge of the Lingmen training yard. The morning was clear. The mountain was beautiful.

Somewhere on Cangshi Peak, an elder was pouring tea for a sixteen-year-old boy who didn't know he was being recruited, and the question being asked wasn't what did you see but what are you willing to say you saw. Tonight, seventh bell, Wei Ziyuan would pour tea for Xie Lan in the same building. Two invitations. Two boys. The same peak. He walked back toward the dormitory block. Old Bao was sitting on the front step, eating a rice cake.

Cheng Lin was standing beside him, arms folded, watching the path to Cangshi Peak where Tang Yi had gone. Cheng Lin looked at Xie Lan. Said nothing. Old Bao looked at Xie Lan. Held up a rice cake. Xie Lan took the rice cake.

Ate it standing on the dormitory steps in the morning sunlight with two boys who saw more than they said and one boy walking toward a choice he didn't know was a choice and a girl on Mingxin Peak pulling textbooks from shelves and an elder on Cangshi Peak who had been patient about things for longer than any of them had been alive. The rice cake was plain flour. Not red bean. It was warm. A note from T. J.

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