Chương 77: Chapter 47:”Yu Remembers a Little of His Secret”

I continued to walk earnestly through the 『World of Heart』. A pitch-black space continued endlessly. There was nothing to serve as a guidepost. I had no choice but to proceed randomly, but there was a strange sensation as if I were being guided by something. Eventually, I found just one sphere glowing faintly white. When I touched it gently, a scene floated into my mind. Was it a memory from sometime? What appeared was a blonde young man I knew well. It's Lenks. Lenks Stanfield.

(He said, looking very reluctant to part.) 『It's about time to say goodbye. 』 I wonder when this was. I recall we played almost every day and said goodbye. But it was always a common greeting like "See you" or "Later." I don't recall being told so formally like this. (As I thought.) (Lenks is going away.) (He created wonderful memories with Yu at the very end. That's what that was.) There, I felt a strong sense of incongruity. Wait. Wait a minute. What am I thinking? The me of that time.

Because Yu refers to me, right? Why am I talking about myself like it's someone else's business? That's strange. And what does "at the very end" mean? Why am I using such feminine wording? Questions overflowed one after another, unable to be suppressed. 『Is it okay? Really not saying it properly. 』 『Yeah. Because he'd cry and cling to me endlessly, I couldn't handle it. Instead—』 (Lenks took out a single letter from his pocket.) Isn't that the letter that was placed in the house when I noticed?

Why am I watching him take it out? It's weird. I don't know. I don't know such a scene. 『I decided to leave this behind. Unlike Yuna, I'm not very good at magic, but... 』 (Instantly, I felt a mysterious sensation as if my body was filled with something.) (I also feel like power is welling up.) This power is... no way. Magic Power!? (Looking at him thinking 'no way', he nods with his usual frivolous face.) 『You seem to have strong Magic Power. I tweaked the Magic Tolerance with [Rebellion].

I'm going to use a little magic. 』 『Magic, huh. 』 I don't remember having such a conversation either. Talking about magic and Magic Power... it's like a conversation in this world... Besides, [Rebellion] and Magic Tolerance. Words I haven't heard came up again. No—. I have heard the word Tolerance. Both Lenks and Ena used it. And both times, it was when they made a move as if testing something. Probably, it's a common sense and important concept for FabL. What exactly is it? Is there any hint here?

At that moment, just a little bit of another memory flowed in. As if explaining exactly what I wished for. 『Hmm. Well, there's no point in explaining in detail. Anyway, there is a power called Qi, and something like the standard limit value of Qi in this world is Qi Tolerance. 』 『Fuhee. 』 『And, this Qi is used for treatment, but the limit value of this world is too low, so I can't treat properly as it is. 』 『Un. 』 I don't know which scene it is, but if I believe Lenks's words, it means this.

In other words, Magic Tolerance seems to be something like the standard limit value of Magic Power in this world. I recall being told by that guy Tor that my Potential Magic Power Value is one million. Originally, the Magic Power Value I possess is ten thousand. That means most of my power is sleeping without coming to the surface usually. It's a wild idea, but couldn't it be thought that this world is imposing restrictions on my power? By the chain called the limit due to Tolerance.

(While I was thinking it was something outrageous again, the letter disappeared poof from his hand.) (Really like magic.) 『Transfer complete. With this, it should have arrived in your room. 』 There is no mistake. It's magic. And the principle seems different from that of this world. Since there are no Magic Elements on Earth, is he using something else instead of Magic Elements? Though I don't know what that is. (I wasn't very surprised anymore. Anything is really possible. This person. With a deeply moved expression, he says earnestly.) 『Yu has become bright enough. I'm not needed anymore. Just a little more, and your role will probably end for the time being too. 』 『I see. Thank you for everything until now. I was a bit fed up sometimes, but it was fun. 』 (Recalling numerous persistent entanglements, I also say earnestly.) Ah. Ah. Why. I know. I have been done various things by Lenks. Trying to hug me, or almost kissing me on the cheek. Saying "I love you."

Every time, I felt a little unpleasant. Being amazed. Kicking him away, or getting angry. No, it's not me! I haven't been done such things. It's impossible. At that time, I was a boy all along, right!? 【—Wrong. I had already become one nine years ago. A girl. 】 Wrong! I don't know such a thing. I don't know! 『Yeah. It was fun. 』 A case of literary theft: this tale is not rightfully on Amazon; if you see it, report the violation. (I wonder what he thought. He had distant eyes.) (A moment of silence flows. Neither of us knows what to say.) (Eventually, as if having made up his mind, he opened his mouth.) 『See ya. I have to go on the next journey now. 』 (Journey. He seems like a foreigner, so is he flying around the world?) It's because he is a FabL. He had to go to the next different world. 『Can we meet again? 』 『Yeah. Someday definitely. If you want, I'll go meet you myself. 』 『Seems persistent. 』 『You figured it out well. 』 (Having hit the mark, he just smiled wryly.) (And, with a refreshed face unthinkable for a parting, he announced.) 『So I won't say goodbye. It's 'see you again'. 』 (Seeing him like that, I could naturally say it refreshingly too.) 『Yeah. Let's meet again. 』 『Right. 』 There, the replay of the memory ended. I was completely confused. What is going on? I shouldn't have such a memory. The way of parting with Lenks was more—. 【No—. 】 【I know. I exchanged farewells with Lenks properly. 】 Wrong! I was left with only a letter by Lenks. And I cried terribly.

【That is also the truth. 】 【But, I heard "see you again." 】 【I heard it. Because the male me would cry terribly, Lenks left only a letter. 】 Aah! Geez! I don't understand! Why? Why are my memories so messed up!? What has been disturbing my thoughts in my head since a while ago!? When I directed my consciousness firmly to my inside for the first time, I could feel the presence of someone filling me from within. Who are " You"!? Because " You" are here, I'm confused! Get out of me!

Instantly, there was a sensation as if something slipped out from within me. Soon, a strange thing happened. A girl exactly like me separated and fell on her back in front of me. I thought "Get out," and it really happened. While being terribly surprised by that fact, I stare intently at her who appeared suddenly. Is she something like a spiritual body without flesh? I received such an impression. Like the fragment of memory I touched earlier, she emits a faint white light from her whole body. She was sleeping.

When I kicked her out, I immediately understood that the state of my heart had completely changed. Current me (ore), although my body remains a woman, I think of myself not as watashi, but as ore. Apparently, my heart has become the same state as when I was a man. That means she was influencing me from the inside and making me believe that I was a woman. I asked her, who was sleeping, once again.

"Who are you? Why do you have the same appearance as me? Why are you sleeping?" There is no reaction. It seems she is sleeping quite deeply. Thinking to wake her up for the time being, I touch her cheek. Then, surprisingly, my hand began to melt into her cheek. It's like that dream I was seeing just before awakening to the ability. The event that proceeded in that dream was happening right in reality. Starting from the touched part, her spiritual body enters into me smoothly again.

I and she mix together and gradually become one. A strange sensation as if my existence is being completely remade wraps my whole body. Heat and a sensation of being filled with something well up throughout my body. But, it's different from the melting pleasure and burning heat I felt in that dream. It's also different from the intense pleasure accompanied by severe pain I felt when I was forcibly transformed by Will.

Rather, I was wrapped in a peaceful comfort, as if my heart were being warmed, as if I were being hugged from the inside. When I realized, she occupied my inside completely again. And I (watashi) think of myself as I (watashi). As I thought. She makes me me. She makes me a woman. What on earth is the purpose of doing such a thing? At that time, a memory flowed in from her who fell asleep. It was a memory of the still small " me (ore)" and her talking in this place. 『Hey.

Even if I become a girl, can I do it properly? 』 『Won't you struggle at first? Well, at that time, I'll enter inside you and help you behave properly as a girl. 』 『I see. That helps. 』 —I see. So that was it. The reason why I have managed to live as a girl until now, even while struggling. It's all because of her cooperation. Because she supported me. Because she made my gender identity and nature into a girl. Alice and Milia properly thought of me as a girl. They accepted me.

Otherwise, even though it was hard enough as it was, living a school life surrounded by precious friends like this would have been absolutely impossible. I have started to remember vaguely. 『World of Heart』. Great power sleeps here. She said so. When I was small, there was a time when I talked with her here every day. That's right. She is another " Me." Another personality that appeared to support me. The best partner who was always closest to me.

Even though we were supposed to have promised to reunite when this ability awakened. Why did I forget such an important thing? Until this time, more than a year after the ability awakened, fulfilling the promise has been delayed. No, to be precise, not in a proper form yet. She is sleeping for some reason. No matter how much I call her since a while ago, there is no sign of her waking up at all. There is only one conceivable cause. Will. It's only that guy.

Because he took an abnormal method of ability awakening, the 『World of Heart』 must have become messed up. And " I (watashi)" got involved and—. Come to think of it, both Lenks and that guy had a tendency to stare deep into my eyes and confirm the existence of " Me." Those who know, know by that. Surely. That's right. That's why he was staring at me silently at that time. I didn't know what he was thinking, but I finally understood. I read too much into it due to excessive fear and misunderstood completely.

He doesn't think I don't matter at all! Rather, the opposite. Because he regards me as important, he appeared first and made a preemptive move. Inea-sensei also said it. My ability is surely not just a simple transformation ability.

"I" said it might be this endlessly wide 『World of Heart』 itself. 『World of Heart』 accumulates every experience.

"I" said it is a vessel as big as the universe. If so, his naming of 【God Vessel】 might not be so off the mark. The fact that he saw through the true nature of my ability and gave it such a grand name as 【God Vessel】. The fact that he implanted a preconception in me that it is a worthless ability that can only transform. If all of it was done knowingly. Probably—the truth is the opposite. My ability has enough power to be worthy of his vigilance! I should be able to use that power somehow. I thought so.

And now that I clearly recognized that fact, for some reason, I somehow know how to use it. Maybe I just don't remember, and I have used the power before. Probably... I just have to pull out what to use from the experiences accumulated here. Just right next to me, there was the memory I saw earlier. The scene of parting with Lenks. There, he used something called [Rebellion] and tweaked Magic Tolerance. If I do exactly as the memory, I should be able to do it too. There is nothing else I can do. Let's try it.

Maybe I will be able to utilize my high Potential Magic Power. If it goes well, I might be able to escape from the restraints. I leave the 『World of Heart』 and return my consciousness to the real world. As usual, thick locks are put on my limbs and torso, and my power is sealed by suction cups and needles attached to my whole body. Alright. Let's try it immediately. 【Rebellion】 《Magic Tolerance Limit Break》 Instantly, the absolute amount of Magic Elements filling my inside began to swell up at once.

I can feel on my skin that Magic Power is rising visibly. Before long, it became so much that even the device sealing the power couldn't suppress the Magic Power. Can I do it with this? But the situation is somewhat strange. The rise of Magic Power doesn't stop anywhere. Eh, wait. Wait. High, too high! My body was screaming at the excessive Magic Power that deviated far from my stature. My whole body creaks violently, and bloody vomit flies out from my mouth.

The runaway power blows away all the suction cups and needles stuck to my body at once. Furthermore, the sound of explosions of laboratory instruments breaking one after another was heard." Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah——————!" My head is splitting! I feel like I'm going crazy! Stop! That's enough! Stop it! However, the ability once started shows no sign of subsiding. Rather, with time, it only increases in intensity. No good! I can't control it! It won't stop! At this rate, I'll break! I'll become crazy!

When I thought I would finally go mad. Although simple, a divinely inspired idea saved me. That's right! If Magic Power is running out of control! Transform! I transformed into a man. Into a body with zero Magic Power Value. Losing the target to affect, [Rebellion] was canceled on its own, and calm returns to the 『World of Heart』. I am relieved from the bottom of my heart that I seem to have been saved.

"Haa... Haa...!" That was close... I was about to self-destruct on my own before falling into the enemy's hands. What an outrageous ability. It can't be used properly at all, can it...! Anyway, it seems I can escape with this. I apply [Qi Reinforcement], put strength, and destroy the locks on my limbs. Without the strange device, it was an easy task. Then I also remove the thick lock on the torso and stood up. Immediately, I search for everyone's Qi. Nearest are Alice and the weakened Karla.

A little further away, the considerably weakened Inea-sensei. Even further away, I feel the Qi of Argus who seems to be fighting energetically. Thank goodness. All three are still alive. Looking around, my clothes and waist pouch were folded neatly and placed on the side. I put them on hurriedly, and first head to Alice. Sorry, everyone. Because of my worthlessness, I exposed you to danger. I'm going now. Please be safe!